Sunday, October 31
Damn, I'm so hooked into games lately I haven't really studied. Four days before it actually starts. I think I'm so dead.
Games... The main cause of death of an A level student.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:19 pm
Wow... I got my com fixed, thanks to Spence. Can't believe how easy it could be to fix my com, and now I'm back to play games! Wahaha... Damn fun. Lol. I'm so addicted to Fairyland, and later maybe trying MapleStory...
Oh god. Games, the cause of death of an A level student.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:45 pm
Wow... I got my com fixed, thanks to Spence. Can't believe how easy it could be to fix my com, and now I'm back to play games! Wahaha... Damn fun. Lol. I'm so addicted to Fairyland, and later maybe trying MapleStory...
Oh god. Games, the cause of death of an A level student.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:45 pm
Wow... I got my com fixed, thanks to Spence. Can't believe how easy it could be to fix my com, and now I'm back to play games! Wahaha... Damn fun. Lol. I'm so addicted to Fairyland, and later maybe trying MapleStory...
Oh god. Games, the cause of death of an A level student.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:01 pm
Friday, October 29
Hmm, wonder what I'm supposed to be doing? A little stunned by the recent prac exams, so there leaves only one choice.
Needa score for written papers.
Easier said than done.
Shit.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:09 pm
Thursday, October 28
Sianz. Totally stunned by my chem practical. Never did a QA question with all negative results for every single test. Crap, tested for a some near non-existent gas and ended up having the boiling tube explode right in front of me. Damn scary.
It's gonna be my last chem pract ever again.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:34 pm
Wednesday, October 27
You know, I'm really damn glad. You never know how this piano exam had been weighing in my heart. All the while, I thought -- Man, I'll never pass at this rate. My scales sucks, my sight-reading sucks, my pieces sucks. I'm bad at this. Crap, I mean, I thought I'll never get through this. I don't know if it meant anything else to the rest of the talented peeps out there with their Grade 8 Certificates, but it certainly meant something for me. It sorta meant a new phase in life, a new direction... Yeah, why would it have so much impact in my life?
Another certificate, another recognisance. I mean, I'm not the kind of staunched devoted pianist dedicated to her art, yeah, and never will be, for the simple reason is that I'm never good enough. But at least, it's an achievement for me, like finally graduating from some endless class. Really endless. I really regretted giving up my electronic organ because I had to switch to piano, since I was more than halfway towards the final grade. Love that class, but couldn't really afford, since I had to change my organ, and it isn't cheap (duh). Crap. Started my piano from scratch (not realy, those years with organ gave me a solid foundation) in grade 2, then crawled my way up. Literally crawled. But at least I had a really patient teacher and friend. Gotta love her, and have to thank her for just being there for me. I mean, being a teacher for so many years isn't an easy task, and she had along about 20 other students. Now she says it's payback time, lol, which brings me to another phase...
She says she's gonna send some of her lower grade students to me, so I can let her take a break from, I quote, "pesky kids". Lol. Then, suddenly, I panicked. Crap, am I supposed to teach them while she handles her other students? A lot of things passed through my mind. I'm not good enough, I'm bad influence with my less-than-flawless playing, I can't possibly take care of them... It's endless. What the hell am I supposed to do? I'm not prepared to be a piano teacher. All my life I played piano for the sake of completing it. Now that I'm here, I'm supposed to teach?! Oh, right, I have been thinking about that option, but being here and really realising it is freaky. I'll have to deal with parents, irritant parents, nosy parents, fierce parents, strict parents. I don't know.
I'm also thinking of getting that grade 8 theory cert, to complete everything. It's not compulsory, since I bagged that grade 6 one already, but you know... My teacher encourages me to go for it, but not under her this time. She recommends me a teacher, and it's like a freelance class, but... I don't know. Maybe I'll go for it after all, or maybe just not now.
I guess I'm scared. It's a new experience for me. Heck, everything's new for me. I already said it's the beginning of a new phase in life. When I first started playing, I took solely for the reason of an extra hobby. I never wanted to accomplish a lot from it. I play because I like music, and I like to get my hands on the keyboard, finger those white and black keys while they work their magic. I admit I'm not an accomplished pianist, and never will be. My purpose to learn was simply, just to learn an instrument, not master that instrument. I'm not one to devote all my time on piano, because I like to jump from something to another all the time. I lack the discipline and determination as a whole. I know I'm lazy, so yeah.
I like to think of myself as just learning something new. All lot of people think that once you start learning piano, you either become some accomplished concert pianist, or you end up teaching the art full-time, or even just giving up altogether. I crossed that giving up part, but doesn't mean I will end up being the other two choices. Maybe leisure teaching, like apart from my full-time work, just to ensure my techniques don't rust. Maybe I'm just feeling inferior, but I don't think that I can survive the pressure of being a really good teacher, being a really good pianist. I'm just glad that I made it this far and bag that elusive cert. Nothing really.
It's just another cert, I guess.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:37 pm
Tuesday, October 26
I AM SO DAMN HAPPY I CAN CRY.
I AM FLABBERGASTED, SHOCKED, DUMBFOUNDED, STUNNED.
I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!!
Posted by Isabelle at 8:12 pm
Monday, October 25
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Posted by Isabelle at 10:04 pm
Sunday, October 24
E hud vaamehk kuut draca tyoc. Hud naymmo socamv. Gehty pinhehk ehceta, pid yr... ed'c hud yc ev E cruimt pa tuehk drec eh dra settma uv bnabynydeuh vun y ciban rayjo aqys, pid. Oayr. Lyh'd cdub ed socamv, cu frydajan. E's y meddma tabnaccat frahajan E cdynd drehgehk ypuid drehkc. E drehg E puddma socamv ib duu silr, kud du namyq yht mad ku cusadesac. Ed'c hud fedreh so luhdnum yhofyo. E lyh'd mad socamv civvan zicd palyica cusa eteud kadc yfyo fedr ed, mayjehk sa mega drec ryhkehk eh cicbahca. E payd socamv ib palyica E tuh'd ryja dra yhcfanc du so xiacdeuhc, yht E uvdah aht ib paehk baccesecdel, yht drah dra suut cfehkc gelg eh. Tysh.
Lyh E zicd drehg cdnyekrd vun yd maycd y frema?
Posted by Isabelle at 9:25 pm
Saturday, October 23
I need to study.
I need psycho myself to study.
I need to beat myself up to psycho myself to study.
I need something to beat myself up to psycho myself to study.
I need to look for something to beat myself up to psycho myself to study.
I need immediate psychiatric help.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:51 pm
Friday, October 22
Two things in life can set you free, Love and hurt now intertwined, Both feelings kept within the soul, but torn apart within the mind. If you love the man you’ll let him go, irreparable hurt will cause the same, you’ll die inside to watch him leave, but to let him stay is only pain.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:10 pm
Two things in life can set you free, Love and hurt now intertwined, Both feelings kept within the soul, but torn apart within the mind. If you love the man you’ll let him go, irreparable hurt will cause the same, you’ll die inside to watch him leave, but to let him stay is only pain.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:10 pm
Ok, I'm having mood swings. Again. Feel down and stupidly inferior. Can't understand it, but that's how I'm feeling. Kinda like cheated, like second-hand. Over what? Something I shouldn't be thinking about. I don't know, I feel so washed-out. I bet I'm so stupid I can't tell the signs. Really. *curses*
No, it's not working out.
No, I'm just plain silly to be falling over into this things.
No, I won't accept myself pleading for something.
No, I'm not gonna get myself all wishy-washy with things.
Whatever thing that's going on, it's all gonna end soon, if I can just get my act together and carry on with life before. I'm sick and tired of playing guessing games.
Posted by Isabelle at 7:11 pm
Thursday, October 21
I'm mad. I'm still up doing some stupid physics question and getting myself haunted by Jun Yong with integration questions. What am I doing anyway? Oh crap.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:52 pm
Tuesday, October 19
Studied, ate, watched TV, played piano, jumped around.
The life of an 'A' level student just barely two weeks before her exams.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:00 pm
Monday, October 18
I'm (as said from a certain blood group test analysis):
As a whole
- Pessimistic (Me?! pessimistic? Oh well.)
- Too sensitive (I've gotta admit)
Basic Behaviour
- Careful about decision-making (hmm...)
- Makes things clear in black and white (yeah. I'd like that.))
- Care too much about social rules and standards (I don't know, somehow affected?)
Tolerance
- High tolerance for physical and repetitive work (Depends, I guess.)
- Cannot take changes easily (Since when?)
- Lose interest in a hobby easily (Yeah.)
How do they see their future and past?
- Try hard to forget the past (YEAH.)
- Pessimistic about the future (I'm just taking one step at a time...)
How do they express their emotions?
- Able to display cool outlook even though angry (Well.)
- Short-tempered (HUH?!)
- Take longer to heal a broken heart (*sniffs*)
- Sensitive to others' opinions (It really depends on who.)
How do they work?
- Perfectionist (Sometimes more often than not.)
- Handle one thing at a time (Can't seem to multi-task talking to many people on msn at a time... Lol.)
- Work a line between work and personal affairs (Yeah.)
- Highly responsible (*ahem*)
- Tend to choose hobbies which help them release stress (Yeah.)
Posted by Isabelle at 11:24 pm
Raving down ECP as we passed by East Coast. Windows wide open, the music blaring at our ears, cars passing by giving us the strange look... Hehe.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:44 am
Took a photo of the airport when we pulled over for ice-cream. Wanted to take that super close airplane about us, but all that turned out was a big mass of lights. Lol.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:45 am
Sunday, October 17
Wow. Sorta chiong whole night (but not really). Got Ven's car out tonight, so we planned to have a major pool session, but cancelled that since we were quite slacked in her car. Had a crazy idea to drive down to Changi Village for Subway, and really took that suggestion for real. I wonder how come we were so enthu... Lol. Yeah. Headed right down TPE and Loyang Ave, then turned in for dinner before driving down towards Changi Beach as we eat our dinner in the car. Including the driver. Can you believe the girl? I should have taken the picture of Ven eating and driving hands-free. Crap. And all four of our lives were in her hands. Heli, Bao, me and her. Oh my god, now that I come to think of it. It was one helluva ride.
Passed by the airport when we drove down Changi beach, and down to the jetty, and one aeroplane just flew past our heads. Not bad huh? See what you can do with a car. Wahaha. Then we had to drive back coz Ven had to fetch someone home, and we wound up back in hougang, near my house. Too late for pool, too early to go home. I think we were all too crazy, coz I think we all agreed to go for another spin down Changi beach. Mad.
So guess where we took off for? Yeah. Lol. Pulled over near the jetty to watch people fish, ate ice-cream, talked crap, count how many planes flew by us, watched the sea. I think I must be mad, coz I am supposed to be studying, yet I was there enjoying the sea breeze and doing nothing. Lol. I supposed it's destressing, but yeah. Fact that I was there, just having a good time with my friends. I think that's what counts the most. Don't really care about what's going to happen tomorrow. Ah whatever.
Had to go off at 10, since we still have a 16-year-old girl (hehe) with a curfew, and drove past Changi Airport again, down ECP, where we started to rave and blast the sound system with the windows wide open. Street punking in a Toyota Camry? Lol. Big car, teenage kids attracting attention in the middle of an expressway... I guess we were mad. Hmm.
Not to mention the brief adventure when I dropped my phone on the road near Hougang Green without my knowledge when I got out of the car. It was on my lap unknowingly, so when I got out, I dropped it, and since my phone had a cover, it sorta thudded softly. Then when we drove off, I realised my phone was not with me, and I panicked. Ven drove back (lucky we weren't too far away) and I almost wanted to jump out of the car. I was so scared. (OMG) I wouldn't know what to do if I had lost my month-old Nokia 7200 flip phone. Oh crap. Lol. It's really God's blessing that a kind person picked it up and answered my call, and waited for us. Wanted to thank that person, but my Bao took the phone back from her, and she left before I could get to her. Wow. Imagine the fate of my phone if it landed in someone else's hands? Hmm.
Had a wild night tonight.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:23 pm
Saturday, October 16
Wow, never thought I'll see this day come by so fast. Hmm. Thought it'll never end. Oh well. Kinda emotional, because things are going too fast, and we are all going our own ways soon. You know, friends, people, things that happen, becoming memories that one day you remember and laugh about it. Just wanted to write something about everyone that has made an impact in my life, even though they might not even read it, but at least I've done my part. =)
To Clara:
Heyhey, sexy chio bu, actually don't really know you until this year when us girls got together more often and went out together. I hope you didn't think I was daoing you or anything, coz you said I was very fierce-looking in the beginning... lol. Will always remember you for your small (but cute) head and your bright smile. You know, it's really very nice and cheery, just that I never told you. Lol. Anyway, you've really been a great friend, and promising bridge club member! Must practise on your skill arh!
To Yin Jie:
Aiya, Hinky really suits you. I think next time you go get Hinky registered as your Christian name lar. Lol. Can't imagine if I'll revert back and call you Yin Jie again, now that Hinky has become so catchy. Hope you'll remember the bridge club, and how you brought you in and taught you all those useless gambling gimmicks. Lol. Mahjong at Jingyu's house, cards in school, so much so we ponned maths lecture halfway and went out to play 2-man bridge. Lol. Fun fun. It was always fun with you lar, whether in school or going out for shopping or movie. You arh, so old-man-sex-deprived-symdrome, want to stare other people's assets so much, then critise your own. Lol. Somemore you don't want to improve on yours. Next time we choose a bra for you, you better wear it ok?
To Sophia:
I don't know whether to say you're my bestest friend or my cutest friend. Lol. So act cute. Hahaha, but never mind, we act cute together. I can't exactly understood why when you first approached me for our chinese class, I was quite shocked that I remember your name from the name listing thing. Yes, I remembered your name. Lol. Maybe it's because it's Sophia lar, easy to remember ma, or maybe it's because we've got a lot of yuan together. Stuck with you for the better of my JC life, and getting ourselves misidentified because teachers seem to think we look like each other. Lol. I think we really clicked together, not because of lame jokes and weird behaviour, but maybe because we kinda have a similar understanding... Well, I don't know, maybe it's just fate. All I know it that it's been a great JC life because of you. =)
To Huiling:
Lol. Didn't know you can be so lame. Knew you from sec school, so we sorta bonded together because of that, but really only knew you after I entered JC life. And I don't know why, but I always become very lame when I'm with you. Lol. Can't stand it, but yeah. Then always take bus home with me, listen to my crap stuff, then you telling me everything about what it happening, since I happen to be one of the blurrest peeps in class. Lol. Gossips ya? Hehe. Then, thanks for just being there for me, even though I don't think I talked much about myself, but you were the one that knew most of my stuff and things. Yeah. Really glad I got to know you better, have fun with you, and mostly talk crap with you and Jy. You study hard yeah? I'll be there by the phone, k? Hehe.
To Huiying:
Hey! PW's been the factor that I got to know you better lar. Other than that, you didn't really talked much about you. You are one helluva serious person you know? Hehe. Gotta learn to relax more yeah? You lar, whenever we eat together you just concentrate on eating... Must learn to stop for a while and chit-chat what... Lol. PW's been really fun with you around, otherwise I wouldn't know what to do with the other two guys. Lol. I mean, seriously, if anyone had to deal with them, it'd be you. I know I haven't been the best of friends with you, but I certainly didn't forget you. And really thanks for agreeing so readily to help me with the Singuan thing, coz I really couldn't make it and can't bear her not having a friend to help. You and I keep in touch kay? And then some day the three of us go out together lar... =)
To Peiyu:
Hoong! Lol. No lar, it's py. Haha. So funny. I don't really know you that well at first, so that's why we didn't talk that much at first. Only got to know you better this year, I guess, even though we hung out together in school all the while. Heyhey, somemore never tell me who you and Sophia were googling at all the while arh? Lol. Ok lar, I'm blur, so I missed the entire thing. Can't blame me right? I'm blur. Have always been talking to you online every now and then, and with Alvin, and found that you are also another lame person (our class has many hidden lame personalities...) so talking to you everytime very funny. Somemore when you gang up with Alvin, I don't think I can stand you guys. Lol. You are one cute and happy girl, ya know? Keep smiling kay? =D
To Yani:
Hey! CHIO BU! So pretty. So nice, always sing with you, and then take part in that song fest, even though we never got selected in the end (mainly because of my mistakes...), but at least I really got to know you better, and you are really sweet and cute! Hey, don't be so like hinky lar, old-man-symdrome. lol. Really like you coz you sing great and you are very frank. I really had fun with you guys when we went over to your place, and you showed us around, even when I complained that we walked too much. lol. Wanna to thank you and your mum for bringing us around your hometown and for the food. Hehe. =)
To Winnie:
You'll always be my ou xiang for being so disciplined in training. Wow. Shen. Lol. So li hai and enthu in everything, and win so many prizes for our class. Hehe. Hmm. Actually don't really know you that well, but yep, we had fun during our Batam trip, shopped and shopped and then 'chop' the table... Lol. I can't stand that man. Lol. We were like aunties and everything, carrying bags of stuff, then jumping on board before everyone else to get the better seats, kicking off the platform between the ship and the jetty. Oh my god. That was so funny. I couldn't stop laughing because of that platform. Lol. Too bad I didn't see who kicked it down on their way across. Haha. Oh well. had a great time with you and sampling their local tidbits (you remember that cheese pancake? Yum.) I really hope you can join us for our class chalet, coz it's gonna be fun when we all come together again.
To Jingyu:
Yoz, known you because we were in the same chinese class with Sophia and Linda, and then later got closer because we kept going over to your house for cookouts, like spagetti and soup? Lol. Fun huh? Mahjong, bridge, cards, tarots... Oh well. Hey, I love those times we spent slacking over at your house. Then, realised you are a pretty good listener. We sorta of talked about things, about this school, about our previous school, about friends. Yeah. I know we weren't as close this year as the last, but we managed huh? Slacked together sometimes and things. I hope we slack together somemore ok? Hehe...
To Merry:
Lol. Hey, you arh. Ok, I just realised I only knew a lot of people this year, and yep, started only to know you better this year. You are so pleasant, and sometimes so no-nonsense, then other times you can go crazy. lol. Had fun being with each other, talking crap and unimportant stuff, then discussing prom stuff and everything with Alvin. Going Batam together was the best (I seem to only remember the Batam trip), with all of us 'aunties', and buying things together, walking until our legs go weak. Lol. We were all so auntie! Hehe. We'll have more fun this coming chalet ok? We'll go chiong. Hehe. Ok arh? =)
To Ben:
Ok, so I was a little harsh with you at times, but sometimes we just piss each other off. Lol. Then, at other times we can like lame together. Aiya, I just don't know what to do with you. I'm sorry for anything I said that pissed you off, or anything I did that made you angry at me. I know we clashed the most during PW, but I also admit that it was those times that I truly talked with you, and sorta tried to understand you. I still don't, and that's why I can't stand you at times. Haven't seen you the last few weeks, and haven't talked with you online ever since don't-know-when, so maybe the next time we see each other we'll behave more civilly. Hehe.
To Alvin:
Ok, never really talked with you much during the first year, maybe towards the end of the year lar, when we had that class BBQ thing, and you sat with me at the beach. That was the most memorable er, event I had with you, I guess. Talked with you online a lot, and told you a hell LOT of things (which only you know... hehe), and you also told me things (which I don't think I know everything) and yeah. You lar, so funny, then always gang up with Peiyu to bully me, don't think I'll ever forget that. Lol. Hmm. And don't keep saying about me keeping everything to myself ok, coz you are also like that. I know lar, so next time I want to frust it all out, I find you ok? =D
To June Yong:
Hmm. I also don't know what to say about you. Well, er, guess was one of the first few girls in class to know you because of PW. And you know what? Actually I didn't even know you were in my class until Huiling spotted you during our first chem pract lesson and told me you looked like Xu Meng Ze guy. Then I asked her if you were in our class. Lol. I didn't know, coz the first few times I saw you you were with the other classes, so I wasn't sure if you were in our class. Lol. Funny. Yeah. Then turned out we were in the same PW group, and scored distinctions for it! =D So proud of ourselves. Hehe. I think we really got closer because of PW, and because you introduced me to NCC, which I think I haven't been going back in a long time. Lol. Yeah. Really had fun with you guys in the bridge club thingy, and going out with you to church and picking clothes for you. Haha. I don't exactly understand why people say we are together, but yeah, anyhow, thanks for being such a nice friend, and cya ok? =D
Posted by Isabelle at 7:25 pm
Friday, October 15
Wow. The final, last day of our JC lives, even though we self-declared it to be on an earlier date. Hehe. Well, you know, the usual. Got cranky and lame, and then took photos of our cranky and lame behaviours. Lol. Very slack, and it was a little useless to put that last-minute physics lecture before the farewell assembly. Come on, who would go for that stupid lesson anyway? Played bridge, then went for our very last civics lesson, jumped around in home class, then watched our next door neighbours cross-dress. (I meant Umbrella boy.) Oh my god! That was totally crap. He took an ultra skimpy school skirt and wore it in class for the rest to take photos of him in that skirt. I mean, it's hair-raising ok? Oh my god... I'm so stunned. Oh crap. Then he paraded around the block, and the rest of the cohort happily chased him across half the school like paparazzi with cameras and phones in hand. Crap. What some guys can do to attract attention.
Watched an amusing performance at the farewell assembly with Mr Chew playing the flute (I didn't know he knew the flute...), Mr Ho giving that great rendition of 'Flying Without Wings' (I swear that man can really sing.) and some popular Chinese song. Ah... But the highlight of the event was... ahem... A Britney Spear's performance by ahem... Mr Reynolds! Oh my god... I laughed and laughed and laughed so hard I couldn't bear to watch the performance. Oh crap. So absolutely stunning. You should have seen the photos (on Jy's blog)... Oh my god... *dies*
Took a lot of photos after that. Went round the school compound to find places to take photos. Lol. Funny. Ended up climbing hills to reach up to some dangerous place to take photos. Yeah. Things we do to take photos. Lol.
Posted by Isabelle at 6:51 pm
Thursday, October 14
What do you do in your spare time? (If you count 20 days to exams spare time...)
-- Play the piano and try to master the damn piece without referring to the sheets.
-- Jump around and act crazy. If you are alone in your room, of course. Wouldn't want your parents to realise you've been possessed by some inconspicuous substance.
-- Listen to music, preferably Maroon 5 (The one with the acoustic version. Ha.)
-- Do a little doodling on rough papers, like writing crappy stuff and hoping people will review it.
-- Screwing yourself over maths, when you are freaking out because you suddenly forgot an important formula, and forgot where you put that formula booklet.
-- Blogging here and crapping so much when all I wanted to say was I was bored.
That's what I do in my spare time. Thank you for your attention. Now, if you'll excuse my sardonic humour...
Posted by Isabelle at 10:46 pm
Tuesday, October 12
Ok. Read my previous post. Realised I'm getting incoherent. Shit. I guess that's what I become when I'm under stress... And JY? Erm. Shit. Argh. Whatever.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:51 pm
Wow. Major suanning. Oh crap. I mean, what's a poor girl like me to be under the cruel hands of my classmates? *blushes incredibly* I'm bowing to the immense pressure and ridicule coming from my classmates, and all because of what? I agreed to someone's erm, request to accompany him (erm, my resourceful friends, you should be able to guess that secret identity) to go to the prom. *blushes again* Oh crap.
What's a girl to do under this circumstances?
PS: Doing something else for a friend. Alvin told me to paste this here, so I'm complying to his orders.
"ppl dated me for prom. I have a date. I WANNA LAUGH AT THOSE WHO DONT HAVE LIKE PEI YU AND ALVIN."
......... (I'm speechless as of now. Need some time to recover from pre-prom teasing.)
Posted by Isabelle at 10:36 pm
Monday, October 11
Yeah, finally settled our prom details, down to the seating arrangements and the table positions. And had to kinda fight for it. I mean, when you had to vie with about 50 others in the queue, that's fighting. Queue cut-ups and pushing around. Yeah. But not that bad lar. Pleased that we arrived early to wait, otherwise I think our tables would have been bad. Real bad. And I thought we were kiasu enough, but apparently other people thought 45 minutes before time just wasn't good enough. Oh well.
Hehe. Then, there's another thing. I'm kinda embarrassed already. Oh shit. There comes the stuttering. Eh. Well, what do you expect me to say? Lol. Kinda funny. You sure this isn't a joke or something like that? Erm... (boy, do I sound like kiddish...)
Hmmmm... I smell a fish.
Posted by Isabelle at 4:57 pm
Sunday, October 10
Slacking day, though I originally planned for an all-scale maths revision today. Oh well. Never had pool session for a long time (I don't mean swimming, I meant the table. Think cues and numbered balls.), so yeah. Why not? We have the wheels for the night. =P
Hmm. At least that took my attention away from revision, so I'm not so stressed out. Gonna blow from the pressure of the major exams. Oh well. Hmm. But reality is, I'm not really prepared to face everything. I don't know if it's happening to everyone, but I'm really scared. Yeah. Absolutely petrified. I hate to see myself in a state of trance, but yeah, I'm in one. I don't want my A levels to end up in the same state as my O's, like a huge bomb that blew right in my face. I hate that kind of feeling. Then, by that time, there will be no way to remedy the situation. Kinda make it or break it. Aiya sian.
Why am I frightening myself again and again?
Posted by Isabelle at 11:27 pm
Saturday, October 9
Went out to study with Guan and Weilun, but sorta disgrouped early coz she had to leave, I had to leave, and he has to meet his girlfriend. Did a few eigenvector questions, but nothing much lar. Pretty slack, slow work.
Met my friend for movie later. He wanted to watch 'White Chick', but too bad, no tix, so I chose that 'Wimbledon' movie. You know, you know, that tennis show? Yeah, that Kirsten Dunst with the don't-know-who guy? Yeah. Sappy romance, but I like, so what? Simple plot, no twists, just a I-like-you, you-like-me kind of movie set in a game of tennis. Hmm. Then he blames me for choosing that movie. But I thought it was good. Lol. Yeah, different taste. Cannot blame me.
Slow day. Nothing much done. Maths and Movie, or maybe breakfast and dinner. Yeah.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:57 pm
Friday, October 8
Met up with Heli and Gang, but only arrived after they finished dinner. Duh. Can't blame them. Told them to go ahead and eat first, but well. Not really hungry anyway, so might as well lar.
Actually, the trip was quite wasted. Reached only around 7 something, and we left about 8. Duh. My trip consisted of two bus rides from Tampines, just to drink a glass of sugar cane. Yah. Sounds funny, now that I think of it. Left chomp chomp for pool over at hougang plaza, and I was kinda reluctant to go. Decided to leave on the pretext of going home to study, but hey, what am I doing now anyway? Lol.
Hmm. Came back so ahead of schedule.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:39 pm
Once again slacking at jy's house with the same gang of people. But at least I did some work ok. Conquered Eigenvectors, and decided I did enough for today. How about 2 tedious questions? Lol. Played a little cards, watched him play some stupid RPG game on the Xbox (Ninja Gaiden), then blogging a little before I go off to meet Heli they all. Don't intend to reach early, so I'm still here. Why not? The air-con, the freedom, the card-playing, and the com. Hehe. Somemore jy's gone for tuition, so it's up to his sis, Huiling, Hinky and me to wreak havoc. Not a bad idea.
Lalalala.....
Posted by Isabelle at 5:06 pm
Thursday, October 7
Stayed home. Did chem 2004 june paper. Did matrices. Slacked a little. Went out with guan to study. Did more matrices. Come home. Now blogging.
Sad life I lead.
Posted by Isabelle at 7:25 pm
Hmm.. I thought the picture is very nice...
Posted by Isabelle at 10:17 am
Wednesday, October 6
Troubled? I don't know what's happening. It's affecting me too, and I don't like these things to crop up just before a MAJOR exam. Kinda upsets the mood for studying. Maybe I don't understand what's happening, but anything that goes around influences my decisions and judgement, and I don't like it. Hate it when I get all wishy-washy and everything, and start blubbering and emotional. I'm a goddamn rational, clear person, and anything that clouds my mind isn't good.
Think positive, think reasonable, think cool. Right.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:25 pm
Wah... Playing bridge at JY's house is boring... And I thought we would be studying. Lol. Aiya... Slackers club. I'm taking a break from the game to post something here while the rest continue. Hmm. Aiya... Sianz.
Posted by Isabelle at 3:41 pm
Tuesday, October 5
Oh brother. Got my prom dress finally today. Short black spagetti dress, frills down the skirt and lots of cleav... Hmm. I wonder what made me buy that. I think I'm having second thoughts about my dress...
Posted by Isabelle at 7:45 pm
Monday, October 4
Shagged. Slept on the bus back home but missed my stop. Shit. Had to travel back again. Waste time for sleeping. Sigh. Got back to bathe and slumped myself against my bed. Sigh. Wonderful bed. I'm totally shagged. Just woke about an hour ago, and now I'm still tired.
I think I'll go to bed early...
Posted by Isabelle at 10:23 pm
Shagged. Slept on the bus back home but missed my stop. Shit. Had to travel back again. Waste time for sleeping. Sigh. Got back to bathe and slumped myself against my bed. Sigh. Wonderful bed. I'm totally shagged. Just woke about an hour ago, and now I'm still tired.
I think I'll go to bed early...
Posted by Isabelle at 10:23 pm
Sunday, October 3
Hmm. Ok, so I went over to Batam, expecting myself to look for er... a corset. Well, turned out that the trip was a rather wild shopping expedition. I didn't expect myself to go wild buying things. Hehe. I think I'd gone bonkers. Got a pair of jeans, a bag, slippers, and earrings. (LOTS of them. Had to spend off the remaining few thousand rupiah I had with me before we boarded the ferry... Lol.)
Toured round the island for shopping malls, glanced at shops, then Yani's mum brought us to all her hotspots. Not bad, and I managed to get that jeans I've procrastinated on buying. Hehe. Finally added the next pair to my miserable collection of jeans. Hehe. And whilst I was at it, saw another bag which kinda caught by eye, so grabbed that as well. That's two things in one shop. Didn't have much luck after that, until Hinky wanted to go to a sport shop, and I bagged a particular pair of slippers. (My old slippers broke anyway. Great chance to change one. Wahaha.)
I'm ultimate. Spent about RM 200 over there, so it's close to SG$100... Man, I can be just a shopaholic sometimes. But that's once in a while k... I think I'm getting from bad to worse, so I guess I need put restraints on myself. Hmm.
Anyway, phones' connection were bad. Couldn't call out, couldn't message, and I got my mum worried. Lol... She went on a calling spree, and caused a ripple of effect man. Lol.. Can you believe? Yasmin, of all people. She didn't even know we were going indonesia! Duh.
Yasmin ==> June Yong ==> Ben ==> ??
Alvin == Merry ==> Me
Huiling's parents ==> Huiling
And I don't know who else she called... Oh whatever. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry at my mum's reaction. She's too... anxious. Argh. Lol. Kinda funny, once you think about it. I guess I'm not too pissed at her for doing it. I mean, she's just concerned. Too bad I can't call home. Oh well. There goes her imagination.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:56 pm
Really tired, so I'm not gonna blog today, even if it's so funny. Lol. Wait till you hear it tomorrow...
Posted by Isabelle at 1:06 am
Friday, October 1
Hmm. I wonder sometimes if I'm too serious. Aiya, just some personal flaws about my character. I'm too serious, I'm just too sensitive for my own good, and I like to mood swing have problematic attitudes. Wonderful traits of mine. I'm proud of my character flaws.
Oh great.
Been too uptight about things. Argh. Wish I can just let go for a while. I mean, I'm too concerned, too involved in things. I need to relax, take a short breather. I just need to slow down lar. Shit.
Have been thinking about a lot of things, everything that's passed throughout this year, and I guess it's time to sort things out. Friends, mainly. Don't want anything to hurt the friendship with anyone, even if it's major quarrels. I mean small petty matters are bad enough to have everyone take sides against one another. It's not good, I mean. At least we've survived for two years, right?
Hmm.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:07 pm
I'm slacker.
Didn't go to school today (again) and went for a jog this morning. 6 rounds, if I'm not wrong, and did a little sit ups at the benches. Not bad an exercise. I think I'll try continue and trim off the fats that are starting to coagulate around my midriff. Sigh.
Jogging really did help a little. Hmm. I really don't feel like going school these few days. Kinda weary already. You cannot forget I'm a bloody damn pig. So I do whatever I like, and whatever my mood dictates. Right now, I'm still not in a school kind of mood. But at least better, I think I'll go school on monday. Yeah. I've only 2 more weeks anyway. Just get it over and done with.
Hmm. Lots of built-up attitude problem.